Saturday, March 22, 2008 { 2:20 AM }

NS have been really great for me and i can see i am coping very well here and i am happy about it now,although this week has been a real physical week,damm unlucky week but the Squad still managed to pull it through.congratulations boys.Few things happened that made me realize about people whom i can really trust and whom i think is just a two faced,i am talking about my NS man.as for u,i trust u so much and to me,u are someone with great personality,but at times,u tend to get a little too sensitive friend.no hard feelings yeah,and to a person out there,why are u always want to find fault in me,i have nothing against u or anyone but u don't have to go around spoiling friendships,to u it doesn't matter but to me it does boy.u got what u wanted and so be it man.i am happy for u and please just leave me alone and i care for all of u.period.Exams are just around the corner and POP is coming in May and i hope i can pass and PO PO with my fellow numbskull's.i am sure we can be the best if we want to.just a little push and it will be great.


I went home early yesterday because gotten myself MC as i was having diarrhea and flu so M.O say go go away,come back to Home Team Academy another day.i initially wanted to take barrack leave but it wasn't granted and my o.c asks to go home so i head home la.reach home around 2 pm and after that meet Vimal at 7pm to accompany him look for job and after that went to Hattri's house and damm,i miss nenek's cooking and all were very welcome eh,hattri's mom were one hot babe,rock uh lu mother!!!!!and nenek was blabbering about missing the YOUNG HOTNESZ and i had to agreed with that statement because people change and became busy.some people are too busy now.they have gone better and forgetten.hope u are doing good out there my fellow babies.


when i was in your arms yesterday,i felt better and happy but i got to take things a back as i don't want to create serious misunderstanding.forgive me for that dear but i am just not not ready for this and please know u are the sweetest drug but i still want to enjoy my life in here.


blogs has say out everything and thanks for the memories guys,sorry for the past and i look forward to another day,didn't meant to MIA but i just had to,not to run away from u guys but to bring me to the next level.i can't really face that person yet but one day i will.u guys are great so losing me won't be a huge problem.i am not being sensitive but this is what i felt and based on opinions and everything.i am losing my inner self and i can see i myself is changing,for the worst NO,for the better,yes,i know Allah is there for me.and i love u guys as much too but i felt u guys change the whole damm thing,thats what u said to me right bro breaker.
nothing much to say but drop it like its hot.

i just cant wait to melt the dance floor soon and i promise to discipline myself to be a one FLY dancer with great techniques.up nest is choreography level and i am gonna do it man.

i love the clan in me but would u guys stay by me each time i need u guys?
and to certain someone
dont break my sister's heart
please don't
i can't bear to see her cry
it makes me wept too
to her
you are just like a tattoo
she's always have u.
i pray for u my sister..

This is for my Sister

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realized nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back got a new direction
I loved you once needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you (I'll always have you)