As i am typing this,i am chatting with my dearest sister
Aty
she is very happy indeed
alhamdulilah
its been a blissful relationship for her
hope u stay strong with him allright
remember
u are always in my prayers
i may not be there
but my soul is always looking after my loved ones


i went to FIS practise just now
with brother Nur
met him around 2pm and then head to Marina for Lunch
ate Nasi Ayam Penyet
sedap sundel
after that,while walking down to Esplanade
saw the woman i love but just had a glance at her
she was busy with her music in her ears
then went to Underground
waiting for FIS to reach
all came late as usual
feeling very welcome with them
they treat me really well
things are getting better now
i hope it stays this way
and please
I'll always support FIS no matter what allright
period


this is the reason why i left early
to clear doubts and any wrongful thinking
but to any parties
dont get me wrong
because i don't mean any harm and this is my blog
its my shit what i wanna write
whatever is written here
i bear no hatred or grudges
trust me on this

i just couldn't take my eyes of u
the way u dance,the way u brought your style,the way u choreograph steps
simply remarkable
even if u don't realize
i kept looking at u
just can't resist
i know whatever i said here won't bring any good effect to you
i must say
u did improved a lot
in choreography wise and dance style
i just so effin proud of u X.
don't mind me
i know certain mistakes i have done towards u
forgive me sweet
i won't jeopardize you and him
i can see from far that u guys are really happy
it pains in my heart
i guess the 2 babes know about this
i just had to control everything
my feelings?emotions?
i know its been 2months plus but i must say i miss u
the sweet voice the naughty behavior in you
i just had to let it out here today
and not that i have not move on
its the love that keep coming back for more
its true what they say
there must be a specific reason why i felt this way
i hate this naked feeling in me but there's nothing i can do about it
even if things were to get my way
i cant simply imagine how things are gonna get
i dare to say
i love u still
and i mean it
no one can replace u for sure
i am not going to let this go
i am going to do whats best for me
even it means risking myself
i'll do that
i have nothing to say
i am speechless
i just hope for the best
each time
i just had to think back the great memories i had

No grudges

i am just really good now
lost one friend
still have some to be with
u are nothing but a twerp boy
so much for being nice to u
but knowing u was great though
advices would be in my mind
i still forgive u but hope u TOO realized your mistakes man

National Service been great and happening
with new found friends and better people
who needs enemies
i hope it turns out well though
and please


takmo nak step fanatic uh dok
kau takde pape
tak suke
bebual depan-depan
jangan macam paham eh aku cakap


i hate to write this but i just have to be honest
hate me all u want
i had to
my blog my pasal
honestly
i am missing u so much
i still love u even i may say i don't
because i hide
but i know deep somehow u won't have this same feeling
u know i know
i won't jeopardize the relationship
i am happy for both of u
i read your blog
i miss the way u are
i miss someone like u
i dare say no once can replaced u
even so,it won't be the same
trust me
i know myself
i hate that i love u so
i just had had to tell my mum the truth that i still miss u
and gladly she take it easy
i don't hope but i pray for my happiness to come soon
Yes
i am dating some girls now but none seems to be my type
only u
i kept thinking about u
i miss u
the love songs we used to let each other hear
keeps playing in my mind
each night before i go to sleep
i had to confide to my bunk mate
he's the one who have been really advising me
to your special someone
don't worry
i won't take her away from u
i still have self respect
but don' u dare hurt her
i am not going to do anything but i'll make sure hell is coming.

i hate this feeling
i miss u so much
why can't u just stay by me
where i am really stable now
please do give it a thought
every 7th day of the month,
i kept thinking of the blissful memories.
i love u still
forgive me for this
i got to be honest
this is my blog


yeah
things are finally settled
thank u lil sis for the open talk
i am really glad
alhamdulilah

i miss u so much eh zeellla
finally can talk2
haha
good luck on our interview today
u gonna make it
trust me.

you wont affect me

Yes i know i have not been updating
sorry
been really busy with NS
and Life is getting better i must say
only some stupid people with stupid mouths
shut up just shut shut up
seriously
i have been keeping really quiet because i don't bother
but if it concerns the friendships,i have to step in
this is getting way out of my nerves already
i just have to burst it out.
Don't we look alike?coz we are the cousins

Saturday was spend beautifully i must say
wake up early morning,
visit my loving grandma and cousins
then went off to my cousin's wedding
it was very grand
held at Taman Warisan
Food was by Tepak Sireh
it was okayy la
get to meet my cousins from my mum's side
after such a long time
all were doing good
the picture up there shows it all
my aunt in scarf,
my gorgeous cousin and me
eevrything was going smoothly
and to the bride and groom
congratulations to both of u
hope and pray that it last till eternity
feel the house with love care and understanding
insyallah
u can make it last
u are in my prayers


then after the wedding
went to Republic Polytechnic
was having dance practice
with Faiz and the Squad 67
F2DM was there
loving crew i must say
learn different types of choreography
reggae and vogueing
which i find it hard to fit in
even the dancers were commenting that it doesn't suit my persona.
well guys,
i have to try something new allright
it was fun with them
because they are damm open and really are true friends.
i am gonna miss them when all of us POP.
i was hugging fareez yesterday because really miss him
still the same old him
reach there around 0430pm
stayed until 0830pm
The sweet alluring Naz came down and after that we plan to hit town
and we did
$15 cab fare shared by me and Naz
ate at burger king and bump into Squad 66 members
and got to meet my long lost best friend
Rosila
see?
i really hug the shit of u
i miss u so much.
getting slimmer and prettier :)
keep in touch darling
after that,planned to went home get some cash and return
but i wasn't allowed to due to some reasons,met up with Zila,ween2,V, at City hall as she was on her way back and they were with her.
i am sorry sam and friends for not turning back

Fhunkie Stylerz Is Back
Dope Or WhaDD
I'll be supporting u guys allright
heard one of the babes improve alot
and just so u know,i am proud of u
but u got yourself a replacement
i am happy allright
but do text me if u need anything
which i think u don't.
haha.
i miss everyone Fhunk Fam crew members.

Best Friend Nursed Me Back To Health

i had to blog about this because it has turned out too much
i don't know how to start or how to react
it seems people are just heartpain to see i and u close
true facts
that u are always there for me
u teach me to be wiser and amtured person
i am still growing to be one
i need time
yes
i said that many times but please
i am not U
which can change or adapt to certain lifestyles that easily
i don't wish to elaborate much here
because i don't wanna talk bad here
it shall create much more havoc for ourself
but i wish u could at least realize
i even got to know
u defended me till u burst out yourself
thank u but don't let it affect me
i am sick and tired of this paparazzi u know
i had enough and when i had enough
I'll just bombard that people myself
i am capable u know
i am sorry for my flaws
but i just hope u know the meaning of true friendship
and NO
i am not blaming u though
but please do think
i am thinking deep and hard now
i am sorry bestfriend.
thank u
period.

sometimes i just had to let the emotions out
i don't know where to start
but life with all this shits
is getting me better and keep track of life
i am so gonna stay on and stay true to myself
i chose my friends now
i chose life now

baby :)
i am missing u alot
plans have been cancel an reschedule
its getting more and more u know
but deep i understand u allright
i love u more okaayy
see u soon.

Saturday 12 April 2008 was the best day indeed
paycheck?
in.
outing?
confirm.
shopping?
confirm
indoor tanning?
confirm.
and for your info people
all have been done
pay came in
$380
left $100
paid bills
shopping food and etc
i am so happy
i am surely gonna elaborate here.
pictures i would upload if time permits

First event of the day
meet Zila at 1pm
to go Cathay for Indoor tanning
i give it a 8/10
it was super good
Zila and i was very anxious and nervous
but it turned out okay
macam transforming into power ranger la sangat
eh zila?
i was thinking of signing up 6sessions
$120
1orth it actually but must wait for pay raise
after that,
meet with zila's love,abang TP
Nur and go makan
after that proceed to City Hall
bought River Island Tee,
got discount from kak Mazee
such a sweet
thank u sweetie
then went to buy str8cut jeans
looking for shoes but none interest me
next time la
after that
they followed me home and wait for me to change
to meet Squad 67 for dinner
period.


Squad 67 Outing
All of us met at Kembangan
initial timing was 6pm
but everyone turned up alte
only abang hosni came at 6pm
very on timing
then came fareez and friend,
melayu,haikal,faiz and his penpal named alex
and like don't know
can't remember
instead of eating at chai chee seafood
we opted to eat at Newton instead
and went there and had great food
it was very fun la
after that headed to play
then every single one except sam I and haikal
still not drunk
simply because we don't drink no matter how much we club
i really enjoyed to cut it short la
coz tired to type.



to this someone with letter 'K'
i know u are in real pain
but how deep
i wouldn't know because i am not u
but i want u to be strong
for yourself for me and others
we all care for
i can't bear to see u like this
it hurts
and please
u are such a nice human
with good heart
don't let this idiots bring u down
i have good intentions
i respect whatever decisions u make now
but if it is a wrong move
don't be sad but learn from it
bad things happen to make u realize
i am gonna be there for u
be true to yourself
fuck dem haterz
this your life
u only got one
to live live
they can't destroy your life
u yourself determined your destiny
remember this
2 people said this to u
a mom's words are prayers
a friend's words are promise
but meant to be broken sometimes
u are such a nice person
people can't bring you down
there is someone better out there for u
it takes time
the reason WE become like this because Allah might have something good for us
not all people lead this lifestyle.
u owe a thank u to F.
he's been helping u a lot
no matter what
i'll be here for u
know that u have me to share your problems
she might give you a comeback as a better person
this are my prayers brother
take care :)


yes
i am getting happier now
life seems so fine now
with the great friends
number one back
family united
alhamdulilah
what more could i ask for?
i just want u guys to understand me
judge me all u want.
i am still myself
period

Truly Groove Hotnesz


I miss having dance practices with them
its been long since i met them
miss the fun jokes and all
i hope u guys are doing great
really hope to meet u guys soon and
have dance practices again and really put our heart in it
i know its hard for me to get things into track
but
Insyallah
we can.
i just hope we can treat each other right
with love and care
i am sorry for my flaws
but i am just a normal human being allright
let's put aside our worries and look at each day positively
i may not be there but certainly
i am still observant of u guys
after i post this
i just want the new G.H
a new found family where love is our number 1 priority
trust me
everything's gonna be okaayy.
i love u guys deep in my heart
haterz can say whatever they want
I'll stick with my decisions
to anyone
just stop the hatred.
Aiyee.Aty.Fee.Haikel.Kaykay.Shada.Sharul
all in one
can't wait for any upcoming dance competition
let's smoke it the hotnesz way
can i say?
we are backkkkk.

to this special someone
i read your blog and i just had to take this quote u wrote about me
i find it sweet and simple
this is what this special soul wrote

to hykel : friends

I know you're still out there Living life with your kind of flair Standing with your face to the sun Picturing your time to come Even if our dreams still seem far away Our friendship will be right here to stay Until we are both gone The road between us will never be too long

after reading it
i just wanna teared
u remembered me despite all thoughts and negativity
u have my respect sister
i miss u so much
know that i am still here

alhamdulilah
things are getting better now
thanks to u for giving me a chance
i am really happy to get my number one back
words can't describe my happy ending
love u so much okaayy ;)
hope it doesn't happy again
and please eh
suntan machine macam power ranger kan..
kelakar la sangat :)


Congratulations to My squad mates
80% passed their law test
alhamdulilah
although i recourse
i am still gonna really put my heart into it
i am gonna miss u guys
PoP soon okaayy.
must do it properly
"dari kiri,perlahan jalan"
sweets!


hey boy
stop the fcuk'ing hypocrite
seriously
u are making things damm worst man for yourself
wake up coz its time for u to make up man.
seriously la


its very positive of u to reply my tags.
it shows how clean your soul is
i am happy now
i just want things back to normal
whatever happens
know that i am still here :)
missing u and her as always

and NO
i wouldn't jeopardize the relationship
i promise
i am the new evolve hykell.
no more drama mama for me
i love u

i am feeling blessed with things around me
i just hope it stays that way
i am looking forward more to good things
i really am
i can't afford to lose anything else
i pray for good things to come
i am still waiting for my light of life
hope u can be there.

Fhunkie Stylerz is making a comeback after so long
YES UH
they are joining Dance Explosion
Guys.
beware coz they are back
dem haterz can like fuck off
i mean it well FIS
i'll still be your number one supporter no matter what
peaceoneloved yaw.
i miss the clan and all

to the glamorous mom
i came across someone's blog and i teared reading her blog
this is serious.i never thought she can get really upset
but i just want u to know that we may not have ties at all after what happened
but just so u know,i still respect for what u are.
trust me.
i mean what i said
let bygones be bygones
i have to admit
as days goes by
i miss u and her so much
but the memories kept me occupied the whole day
i always take each day by all means
i appreciate things that have happened in the past
i may or may not be a wise person last time
but now i am
being bad boy makes me realize a lot of things
each time i took a sneek peak at the pictures,
tears rolled down my cheeks
i kept blaming myself and some others for this
but i can see the fruitful turn in the end
i was able to concentrate NS and other dreams that i wish to achieve in years to come
but i really hope u can celebrate it with me one day
i don't wish for your comeback
because i know u won't
but deep inside
the love is there because i remember the positive sides of u
as for u my dear "glamour mama"
i want u to be strong in whatever situations
i really don't know what is going on but i certainly hope
it has nothing to do with me because i have never want to talk about u or anyone
unless someone initiate that conversation
but i have told u
what done is done
i am happy
i am getting my life into track right
please be fine
and smile for me
:)


please stop all this hatred
i had seriously enough
what u really want that can sastify u
please la
i have kept quiet man.


and a big Thank U to C.A
for just taking out his mobile just to text me about how am i coping now
i owed u one man.
keep rawking
coz u are
fly'

Baby Brother
where u at?

i am feeling down now,
my baby brother Adil,is missing without trace
been calling his mobile but its untraceable
he rejects the calls
i know u are angry with dad but
u can't do this to me knowing i only have u now
Danial's is at someone's care and he is doing great
alhamdulilah
but i am really worried for u
please return home
hide your emotions and be happy
i miss u so much brother
please know i love u so much
i care for u
i am sorry for not being there when u needed me.
please come back home
i need you
help me people
do contact me if u see him anywhere
i thank u guys for that
peace : (


as i said a little prayer
hope my brother is doing well
and hope it comes to his senses
i had sore eyes in the morning and was given sick leave
and yeah NS mates
so much for "ciaokeng"
i was for real eh
real la sangat
i am still feeling down here
i miss my number one
heard she is attached
good for her
happy no matter what
but i have this feeling someone influence her
i hope its not TRUE
i am waiting for your comeback ..
i miss u
i teared as i type this
timecheck?
11pm.
i am so lazy
and sorry if i dissapoint u girl
afterall
i am bad boy
remember?

First and Foremost
Credits to Gorgeous Atikah For helping me with the blog skins
its time for revamp as i would change everything today plus myself
so random but i myself felt i needed the change alright
events have been happening lately that i don't know how to start and how to react
just came by like a strong gust of wind with dust covering your eyes and leaving u blinded for a moment.

I am confused really
about what is happening between us
brother and sister
i am shocked and don't know how to react
maybe its all me but i am just sorry
i hate the way we are now
u should know u are my number one
because simply u were there when i needed u
but i guess people change and i don't blame u
but i hope for a miracle that things would get back to track like before
forgive me my mistakes
i don't really wish to be treated like this
i never did this to but i just want the best
and u know u got my blessings for anything
i teared thinking about this yesterday
kept asking myself what's my mistake
i am sorry for my words but i don't mean any harm
please forgive me and i am hoping to see yourself again
u can always call or text me anytime u like : )


i have said it once and for all
i am sorry to disappoint u guys
but i got to be firm with my decision
i have to leave because of certain issues
i won't say here because i have been warned by my blood and bestfriend
i wish all the best in you guys
insyallah
when time is right
I'll make my choice again
whatever the situation is
i leave it to Allah's fate
and if i have done any mistakes,
i am sorry but i have to move on
if my moves are wrong,let me learn myself.
stop talking behind my back too boys and girls
because I'll be glad to share u my dope life
period : )

i must say i miss u so much
memories are accompanying me in my dreams and whenever i felt so down
but i know u are happy now
alhamdulilah
i have my arms open
but i know u don't need me anymore
all the best in your polytechnic life.

i had a lot of fun yesterday
going out with camp mates and their friends
all were friendly and warm
get to know this 'Shy' girl name Naz,
Hosni's friend and Fheedza was there
but didn't talk to her that much though
*hope we all can stop the hatred*
we went out to Marina for Dinner
then headed to Play and meet Abang and Company
party all night long and seriously
I AM A GOOD BOY GONE WILD
i so fucking miss you and Fhunkie Stylerz
heard that they Are back
Holy Cow,
i am still gonna be their number 1 supporter no matter what
Ya' DIG
i miss u guys so much and i hope no more hard feelings
what past is past.
i have start to repaint my new life today
060408


to this sweetest drug by the name of
A
girl
u amaze me with every of your own style and sexyness
u make my head go round and round
this for ya
I got a problem and I don't know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don't know if I would quit but I doubt it
I'm taken by the thought of it, and I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction, I'm so strung out on you
I can barely move but I like it

And it's all because of you
And it's all because...
Never get enough,
She's the sweetest drug

true
u are the sweetest drug
even though we don't show it
but somehow
i hope we can work things out
please keep yourself free on saturday
or i have to book u 2 weeks in advance
i know u gonna give me a cheeky smile
thanks for everything alright
i know its stupid
but i love u :)
it was a great moment chatting at msn
sampai anak semua terkeluaring.
hehes.
Baby girl you can be my Cinderella

Bro loved
i wanna thank u for everything
advices.love.tempers.scoldings.
its been a rocking friendship but
i thank u and owe u a lot
someone's birthday on 8 April
i am gonna get u something
and wai long please :)
smile for me
thanks again brother
every night before i got to bed.
i would remember the day 12/12/07
the day we chatted
and i have good intentions

V
i miss u okaayy
please stay hot and i got something to tell u okaayy
take care oakyy
miss u.
meet up real soon..




i have planned it well now about my life
i am repainting my life starting from today
060408
I'll make adjustments to my life
take precautions and choose friends wisely
i am gonna make it big this time
i swear
and there is some people is gonna share the happiness with me
i know i am been a bad bad boy
but afterall
i am a good boy gone wild
i am gonan enjoy but take care of myself too
because i am not trying to boast here
but there are just underpaid paparazzi who's keen to know about my life
i am gonna make sure i enjoy every bit of it
i am gonna love my family more
and everyone
u shall see the new evolve hykell
no more hotnesz for me
coz i'm fly
Period.
booking in camp soon
timecheck?
5.15pm
gonna get ready my stuffs and all
to my readers,
have a great week ahead.


Another 2 just came up and said they love me on the radio
Two twins that's a coolest scenario
They talkin leaving right now
Wanna put in some time cause you know what they are ready for
One talking
How she like the way that I pop
And the other one
Said she wanna just watch
I'm game for any damn thing
But there's more than 200 dames
That's ready to go

watch me because i am backkkk

National Service
Been ups and downs lately
but overall fun
i am going for a recourse for extra one month
face the fact but i am ready for it
period
and yeah
some people just can't get enough of my life
after i so called abandon u
u start talking and talking
u just can never get enough
and do u have to influence my clan
u don't have too boy
because i am sick in seeing your face
period


Friends?
they just come and go
i knew about it
people change towards me
but i just want this one soul to stay
and that's enough for me
and i wanna thank that other soul for believing in me
and never fails to advice me
thanks
and to deary sister
i am sorry for everything allright
i can't afford to lose someone like you
please forgive me
i am rather confuse with life now
complicated things are starting to happen
but i am gonna be patient in this
trust me.


somehow.
i miss u so much
its just the naked feeling of me
i am myself shocked
today marks the day u know what
but i pray for your happiness
in face i do althought u won't see it
trust me
u are gonna make it great
as i type this
a lil tears flowed
thats it for today