my blog is where i really express everything in my life
something u might not know about my life
i maybe wrong in certain parts of life but certainly
i got the guidance from a lot of people
i found something on
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something that cause my legs rooted to the grounded
my heart pounded fast as if i am running 2.4km
my reactions become vulnerable
became uncertain
i looked as if i am lost with different directions to go
and to choose from
but i know what my heart wants
i maybe wrong but i learn from my mistakes
and setbacks
this entire post has been dedicated to someone that cause a spark of brighter light is my life
a gorgeous lady with a attitude
'i like'
the meet up yesterday was indeed a beautiful one
hearing u babble here and that shows
me a different thinking of what u are
i thought u were a heartbreaker
show stopper
but i was wrong and i am sorry
its the person that u got attached to and mix to that really changes u
now i agreed with my friends that getting into a relationship with someone
can really change a person's character
i have to agreed on that
i feel that u were the rose among the thorns
it didn't wasted any of my breath talking to u
i know how u felt about the past and
i swear i could feel u because we have gone through the same trauma
but i don't want to rake up the past
life has to go on
i kept thinking why it happens to me
but now i have found out the truth
only setbacks can make me a matured person
i admit i like u
i admit u made me want to start a lovely and healthy relationship
u made me want to have a second try in love
i really want to give it a good shot
i don't wanna the past be a repeat in my life
i have lost trust in girls
but u just made me a good excuse for me to start anew
i am gonna keep us discreet because i don't want
a relationship breaker to strike again
i really want to make u happy
i really want to make it happen
i really want u to to know me better
but
u have to accept for who i am
and by being myself that can really make it last
i accept whatever flaws u have and negativities
but that doesn't deterred or prevent me from getting you
i felt its hard knowing i have nothing
but i really hope u have a little heart
that is place for my love to pour in
it may be early but i rather be honest now with u
meeting up with u was the best thing yesterday
and
*u are my sweetest drug*
u made me just the person i was last time
even better
thanks to my bestie
but i am really afraid of your acceptance in having me in your life
but i wanna take it slow

i want u to know u are the sweetest thing on earth
let's put your past and my past behind
let's become good friends and knowing our characteristics better
i am willing to give myself a chance
i hope u are too
i hope by taking 2hours blogging about this would somehow give it a good way
here is a little poem that i have searched and edited myself. :)

Don’t know if you already know
That here I am having a crush on you,
It may seem a little crazy but it’s true
If you will know what will I do?

Though you’re not exactly my ideal woman
‘Coz you’re kind of weird or a crazy one,
Still you’re my crush ‘coz for me you are one of a kind
This is my poem, for you I wrote. and edited

Somehow this feeling will soon disappear
‘Coz it’s just a crush and not something deeper,
Only admiration that everyone feels
Not just for teenagers but for grown ups as well.

Time will come I will like you more
As I won't let this admiration be drowned to the shore
My only wish is your acceptance and decision
A simple remembrance I will surely treasure
i know it is hard but
love is a special thing that bring us together
but setbacks are here to make us stronger

to my sweetest drug

i hope u would be touched what i have done

don't shed a tear because i am gonna be the the tissue that wipes the sadness in your face

do give me a chance to know u and be in your life

take care sweetheart.
i am always here for u
-hykell-