maybe separation was the best options for all of us
since there is no more happiness in us
whatever happens here is for my readers to know how i felt and what can i do to be a better person
yesterday was everything i get to know
about my family about all problems we having
all this while i just kept quiet
keeping the problems to myself and not sharing
because i know its just parts of my blissful life
but today,i had to share with someone i love and care for
Zeella
yeah she is the one some people think she is a bad influence but she never steal people's boyfriends
she has negativities,everyone has but i know and i kept a watchful eye over that
sorry to bother u sister
but 6years of friendship and love, i am sure u know how i handle things
yesterday on a thursday@2145,
mom was packing her bags for her trip to Kuala Lumpur today which is friday @8am and she was just doing her things while my dad watch DVD and my brother and i talk crap
i thought everything was really fine when suddenly my dad told my mom in a very rude manner saying we have nothing anymore and i dont want u to get to know about my family members or anyone that has got to do with my family
just bust off from this and this is what u wanted
i stared in dismay and couldt say anything
tears rolled down in silence and i stood up for my mom saying and definitely had to be rude to my dad by saying its up to her who she wanna contact,this is between u and her and there is no point preventing her from doing this and that
my father hate me for this i know
he was never fair to me and i was giving enough love from a dad,
he did give money and all but i wanted a bestfried
my mom did
she was everything
i could take her as my idol and my everyday breakfast that makes my day
i love her to bits
she maybe mean and she can kill me with her words but no one can replace her
i realized it now
if my mom and dad were to divorced*touch wood*,
i want them to really think what is good for them and us
spilt it equally and still be bestfriends
memang pahit untuk ditelan but what truth is truth
i have to be strong and hold upright,they need me
my brothers need my attention so they wont go astray
i hope and pray hard that allah gave me blessings in what i do and give me guidance in little things
tears starting to rolled down my cheeks now and i cant take it
i just hope my mum is smiling and haing fun out there and dont forget to pray and buy something for us tau
i love u
and one more thing
papa,i love u too so much but i hope all can goes well
i dont want to be the second one to suffer all this
but wait,i dont blame allah as he is giving me time and patience and guidance for this so i wont repeat in my future years
i am gonna work hard earning big bucks
getting a good understanding beautiful gf-=wife=soulmate for life
someone who i could trust on and lean on
i may never said this but i hope zeella is going to be there for me till i reached my last breath
and friends who know me,u are remembered and still Speacial to me :)
please help me and listen to my plight
i dont want to lose the happinnes again
and i want to stop pretending.
and this post is published on 25/10 @ 11pm as i could not update the post date and stuffs.