i am just the guy next door

PLEASE READ !!!

Listen
Everybody's talking all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live?
I don't need permission, make my own decisions


wow people
u judge me just like that
its been a few days since i last update and i wanted to update something fruitful about my monday and tuesday where i played soccer with the boys and durians with the old folks
but i guess this is much more important
i wish to keep matters between myself but when Shinx tag me
i had to do something about it
and the person who tagged me
i know who u are
coz u told me so
i am not angry with u
maybe u are much more wiser than me simply because u know everything
let me tell u bit about myself
sarcasm is my second language
i had to blog about all this because people out there cant stop talking about me because i am a hot topic
and the more i kept quiet the more the mouth like Cheebai
yes honestly
i was a fucking jerk and a fucking boy few months back or maybe during my secondary school years
i have a paranoid feelings
i smoke
i had sex with my loved one
i was a fire starter NOT
hypocrisy is my blood
i had the most horrific character
i club
i pick fight and i ruined people relationships
i was called GAY
i was called Bisexual
i was called Stuck up

these are what people know about me last time and till now its still the same thinking u people have
don't u ever think ?
i swear and i cont wish to elaborate
i became like this thanks to that 'special' one who ruined my entire life
my first four months of NS
people don't know
but those bend it like beckham people understand my life
they brought me to another phrase where i can just sit down and enjoy simple moments
it was hard for me but then i got it through
thanks to the people and also myself who wanted a change
i took another step in my life way better then others
its been 10 months now and i an see myself at a greater heights
let me tell u what i have change
i have freaking' move on
i still smoke
i don't club unless if i felt like too
i don't have sex with any girls till now
because i felt i can only make love to someone i love
and i loss to someone
yeah u may think its disgusting but this is
HAIKEL to You
i became paranoid when i know someone played behind my back
but one thing i know God has given me a special character
someone with feelings and i can feel something is not right easily
and yeah after the broke up
i felt like turning Bisexual or Gay
maybe because the people around me made me too
but i still stand my roots and ground
&
Don't get me wrong
I'm really not souped
Ego trips is not my thing
All these strange relationships really gets me down
I see nothing wrong in spreading myself around
i picked fights and ruined people love affair?
that's absolutely wrong baby
i am not that kind of person and i know how it feels
because i been there done that
and i am not stuck up
i change and i know i am humble person with little needs
i was a fire starter but for the right reasons
and please people
if my past has been telling u those horrific stories and u chose to believe
by all means
that baby is not that innocence at all
i know u been telling bad stuffs about me
and u keep doing that
come on numbskull
move on with that fucking life
live your life
aye aye aye
but those people who again believe
i guess u have not learn to stand on your on
u still need your mama to change your everyday clothes
and yeah to that SOMEONE who thinks otherwise
i thank God for letting me into your life
u know me different form others
i change because i had too
at times i just felt lazy about my life and i dont care
but people like SHINX HAFA ROS ISMAIL and to name others
made me think wisely about my life and my choices
now i know what i want in my lfe
and yeah i got a crush on someone but we dont contact at all because fate hasn't meet us
but i pray one day she might be the one for me jyeah
i love my family friends and others
but please leave me alone
i dont be a burden to u anymore
so please just stut up and leave
and yeah to the person who tag me
please ask and convey my special lovely message to your Naf * her friend
to stop spreading around ba dnews about me before i dom something which u wont like it
u told me to control myself and now im doing u that special favour by keeping quiet
oh yeah
i havent become a celebrity yet but the world knows about me
even throught the snow of fifth avenue
but i am HAIKEL =)
thanks for waking me up at the right time
and yeah to peace all the people who wants to know why i dont have gf now
its all thanks to that someone in the past
but yet i forgive her and just act normal
but KARMA is sweet people
its not i want to rake up the past but people made me too
and yeah i couldnt trust any girls right now
but i know when i am ready
i know God is forgiving for what nonsenses i have done
and it wants me to learn from my mistakes
and yeah to add to this little post
i am someone u shall look for at the last resort
i maybe a stuck up but when u know me better
u loved me so people
stop talking about me and my life
i know when to react to situations given
but so far so good
i have nothing to day and i am leaving for work now
thanks for reading yeah
loved