its left to a day before the new year strike
and we all be leaving 2008 behind me and starting a new brand 2009
i am pretty sure all humans out there are scribbling resolutions on piece of paper
that's what i am currently doing now
instead of sleeping and getting a good rest after a hard night at work
i am here updating blog and watching house bunny on my DVD
too bad that i cant celebrate countdown as i am working tonight
never mind as long as i just do a back flip later (;
i am now squeezing my brains out on resolutions i wanna make
insyallah I'll be the new Haikel
changes takes time but with 2009
it would be a good year with a good start
no more nonsenses like last time
mistakes done and learned
RESOLUTIONS FOR 2009 (:
1.Be a better and capable independent man and a religious man
2.Have a better character and well- being
3.Be Honest and well-like by all kinds of people
4.Have a better career and better friends
5.A Diploma and well-secured job
6.Be a Role-Model and Superstar
7.Have a Happy and Supportive Family Friends
8.Be Physically Fit and Healthy and Lean Toned Bod(:
9.Do well in my NS and get good records
10.Be a Humble and Trustworthy
11.I want a GF soon with this qualities - Honesty Trustworthy Caring Beautiful Inside Out
FAITHFUL Understanding & Sweet Loving Who Accepts me for who i am (;
No one's perfect Though
12.Show my Special Friend She Is Worth A Man's Love(u know That Miss H)
just so u know,i care for you and i do have love for you,
13.Get My Dreams come true
14.Be less Sensitive and more lively open minded
15. Respect people with love and care
16.Treat everyone equally and to have zeella back
my sister whom i love so much(:
Hafawati my bestfriend whom i can always appreicate
17.Smile always and gained love from everyone
18.Be Back in the dance scene and dope like before
19.Make a gathering for all Y.H G.H VRA and happy occasion
20.Just being myself and a better haikel and well-liked by everyone with good luck all the way and a religious man and to yearn someone to love me and stick to that person all the way

i guess thats my resolutions
got alot but thats all i can say
i just hope it would turned out to be a very good year for me
free for big hardships and stuffs
to everyone
Happy New Year 2009
forgive me and forget all mistakes
i love all of you and just so u know
u are at the back of my mind (:

helloHELLO
just felt like updating and i am supposed to sleep now
but eyes is not telling me to sleep
i need my bedtime videos @ Youtube
then i can sleep on my cozy sofabed
added new bed sheets and new comforter
gonna be in dreamland soon

work was fine
just a little busy as usual
and i plan to work somewhere to earn some extra cash
=)
just want to pass time
planning to start my studies in March and take the course that i want
alright
i am so shag
watch out for my updates and
to my dear shikin tembab
have a safe trip and dont drive too fast lah
semoga selamat pergi selamat pulang


and i miss hafa lor

Now that I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cause I'd already know

Hello Everyone
Hope all bloggers are doing good (:
and yeah to special friend
have a safe trip and return safely alright
don't forget my CB gifts
i owed you one though

have been sleeping and staying home all the while since yesterday
saving money for rainy days
it is the rainy season
and yes i watch Beverly Hills Chi Hua Hua
found it on my DVD Shelf and it was kinda funny and little boring though
well basically i am just lazing around and getting ready as i am meeting Lindaa later on
Ismail might be joining us though after he finishes everything
anyway randomly
i just felt like falling in love again
sick of being single though
but i hope i find the right one soon
efforts made but waiting for the right time

work has been okay
just that i have to keep my mouth shut at times
too irritating this haikel (:
and not to create enemies
so far so good ((;

Uh Yes
i suddenly remember
Happy 17th Birthday To LydiaLiyana
Best Wishes Yeah(:
Semoga Panjang Umur Murah Rezeki
Wish U Another 5days of Memorable before the
2009 came it yeah
sorry for everything and hope u reading this
stay sweet and gorgeous
and dont worry
secret tetap secret dong (;
peace

alright
i guess thats all for now
and currently i am listening to
more then words by Frankie J
thanks to the Love Guru
and Jessica Alba is Damm Hot Lor ((:

behind this smile lies a certain reason for my life

[SPEAK]
certain things in life
u have to speak about it
because certain people just judge you without thinking
this is what i felt
to you whom i used to call Ciara
u are right at times about those human beings feelings and how they live their life
u know about it because u took that course and stuffs
but let me remind you again that not what u see is what u get girl
and not every of my blog is about you
and for your info when u told me not to mess around with you which i didnt
and again you are scaring me
its like my moves are being watch and that's scaring me
honestly i have no grudges against you
and yeah at times we may have some misunderstandings and i happened to blog it out to conversate my feelings with my blog
and hats what blogs are for
its for us to say out what we feel and our shout outs
i am sorry if at times i am like a big ass to you
but the irritating haikel is much more a different person
on the other note
its because of you
there is some words of you that totally change him
makes him much more matured
when u say u are nothing and that's why u are being used
i totally disagreed to that
because u are woman with brains
a woman with a good sincere heart
willing to go out and do a big favor for your friends
although u just dont have the right ingredients
honestly i appreciate you
and i am sorry if at times i am like a big jerk
forgive me for that
but at the end of the day
your name is what i looked for every night
true what u said
love cannot be force
i understand you and being a good Samaritan
i treated you the same
alright girl now you know this post is dedicated to you
the one and only
so dont say i never tell you
and physchoing kill =)

My workplace had a makan2 at chai chee seafood restaurant on friday which is 2 days ago
and we have hell lot of fun and everyone was enjoying followed by durian feasting
all went except Daryl and Hong kiat and Charles =)

So many things happened on thursday and friday
and i am gonna update it here and now
so you all can have a look =)
i didn't blog it on the day itself as i was too tired or lazy
but i enjoyed every moment of it

Thursday @ 18/12/2008
8am
i met the others at NPPK and we proceeded to PCG @ Pulau Brani
as our filming was there
reached around 9 am and had breakfast
& immediately at 0945 we started filming and first scene was me and hairi
and yeah i am the penyagak
sial nye budak2
so it was very hectic as certain scenes i have to do a few times as some forget the lines
haha but it was a memorable experience for me
let the pictures do the talking alright as i am lazzzyyyy.
smile

LuLu,April.HaikeL
The soundman The Co-Director The Actor
we love taking pictures and they are so friendly
and helpful and i owe them alot yaw =)

"enough la take picture'
like hafa always say 'Sumpah muke tak perlu eh kek'

dont you think she is sweet =)

the car scene
when can i get my class 3 ??

Scene 2 with a smile

Preparations

Boy the Director
such a nice fella with very encouraging words

smile smile twist twist

the traineess doing their thing

when is the filming gonna finish

after half a day i think i look err fresh?

Overall i enjoyed every single moment
the hot sun the scenes that requires retakes
the fun and the love we all had
the jokes and stuffs
really was a good experience for me and the rest
but there is more i need to learn and be professional
i thank SPF for giving me a chance to be on T.V and also for me to gain experience
and yeah in case you dont know this video is for Crimewatch
once its all compiled up
i'll put it up here for a show
=)
and another filming tomorrow and its a club scene
yeah baby yeah
although i dont really club =)

Graphics Tee @ $35

let me update what i bought just now
and how much i burned my pocket (:
decided to spent extra this month
saving up the rest for driving
and also for rainy days

wallet@ $29
Boxers 2 @ $29
thats what i bought
i seriously need a new wallet as the old one is badly torn
and boxers to just add some colour for my below
what the fuck ((;
so i wont be spending anything else except food and travel concession
and yeah meet up with hafa and ifah just now
short but memorable
sorry had to leave early
gotta hit the sheets early for tommorow's filming
wish and pray me to do my best yeah
uh-uh
the pictures do the talking yeah

miss this gorgeous babe here
getting prettier eh

Kecoh is the new us =)

yeah my everyday bliss

the lesbians NOT
haha
alright i am so going to bed
need to rehearse my scripts and stuffs
wake up very early tommorw
i hope i put up a good act
=)

before i update about the loss of my handphone in a taxi
and founding it back 10mins later
i wish to say to this two beautiful ladies
girls
wake up babes
u are being plain stupid
now the 2 of you come to me because u were cheated
but then when u were happily with him
where was I?
your dog picking up your coins when u drop it
i been the freaking shit at one time
saving your ass and i get the blame
but u still go with him despite all those harsh words and feelings
and now when he did it again
u felt cheated
i did warn you though
but u weren't listen
wake up girls
we men dont stick to one
but i do honestly
bur this has go to stop
to his ex
dont ask me why
i didnt get myself involved and dont make me do so alright
settle between yourself
you much wiser then me
period
girls
its time to put on the make up perfect smile
and move on and only god knows how to deal
period and peace
and to be fair to that guy
i dont wih to get involved ((:

and yeah
i went to meet a friend of mine and decided to leave around 12am and took a cab home
upon reaching home,i paid and left without checking and when i took the lift home
i was cursing myself
why?
i left my handphone in the taxi
i run like a mad man and call citycab and ask for the inquiries and stuffs
the lady was very helpful and she called me back 10mins saying my handphone is in safe custody and gave me the driver's contact number
i briefly thank her and called the driver
he said he drop by and sent my handphone here and i get it
pass him $10 as a token of appriecation
then got home with a sigh of relief
wrote an email to CityCab to thank both officers.
and that's all
and i wasted $32 on pizza hut today and its worth la
((:
thats all
cant wait for filming this friday and gathering ((:

THIS IS WHAT I HAD FOR DINNER
$37 JUST FOR ALL THESE
FOR MY WORTHY STOMACH
=)

TIRED SHAG
is all i can say
finally i can breathe easily
had few hours of sleep just now
better then nothing
just finish my second night shift yesterday which ends today morning
and its my first off today
but then i cant sleep due to the fact i have to attend the meeting for the
Ethics Video Seminar 2009
which showcases corruptions in the police force
no hard feelings
so it was at 11am,i went home first and took a 1hour nap
woke up and get ready and left taking the train to Novena
reach NPPK around 1030 and immediately change pass and went to the briefing room
to my surprise
there were regular officers from TRACOM
who have been chosen to act in this video
i just sat there with my weak body waiting for the rest and the management to arrived
so i was given a script and as usual
i am the bad person ((;
but its very hard for me to get myself in the picture as the actor
but i'll try my best though
so after few tryouts i got the ideas
and i am practicing now
((:
Shooting of Scenes is gonna be on Friday
and i hope i can still attend the gathering of my team
i pray hard as i dont want to be left out of the fun
so i hope all is okay
and honestly i began to see the light of line slowly
and i wish to make it a point that everyone makes mistake
we learn everytime we bleed
i am so tired
i am down for bed now or later
so pray hard that i put up a good acting skills
and to those who supported me
thank you i love you ((:

have you ever wondered who is my best bestfriend?
the picture tells all
we contact almost every day and so far so good
yeah i love her
but strictly best friend ajerr noh
((;


Alhamdulilah Syukur
i thank Allah for the blessings given
i can now see of it more
i can see good things coming slowly
i am so happy and thankful
today was the day i can smile without fear
sorry for not updating my blog
so yeah had a bad day at work just now
had a little feud with the Mr "WORLD"
due to his fucking nonsense
been tolerating and yeah got the cheek to ate the pizza that i bought for the team with no occasion and u got the balls of fury to be a hypocrite to me
when i asked
dont wanna admit
haha,u talked too much
u live in your own world
people like you might survived
well yeah
u say i cant be successful
dont have to worry
the great has set aside how my life is gonna be
and how am i gonna make it worth living my life
come walking in my shoes and see what i do
i had to burst off because its fucking too much
so after night shift just now
had breakfast and went to CDC
for E-trial from 9-12pm and Basic Theory Test @ 1pm
alhamdulilah,after much stress
i passed and was told to get a Provisional Driving License and book Final Theory Test
so i waited almost 2hours and i just got my PDL only
and yeah while i was doing the E-trial
i got a call from the NPPK@ Ministry Of Manpower
it was a good news for
remember i went for the police video auditions and stuffs
i was being selected and to attend a meeting tommorow
what a double joy for me
alhamdulilah
i was soo happy and now i am lacking of sleep and my body is all weak
working later till tommorow and then straight to NPPK
just wish i could breath a little more later
other than that
mum is starting a school canteen in January
and i pray for her success
and i cant wait studying
and i just realised something
i could see a turning point in my life although problems seem so far away but its getting near
whatever it is
i know i got the right family and friends
amin

TIRED TO EVEN UPDATE
good night everyone
muscle cramps due to traffic police mass jog just now

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i have nothing to do and i am going to sleep now
my eyes are tired due to what happened just yesterday
i dont wish to speak it out
there is a reason why am like this people
hate me or love me
its still an obsession
sorry if the way i behave makes u diss me
but this is haikel and this is how i lead my life
i am wild in my own ways
i dont need you to be my pillow
i do need a girlfriend but no one is the perfect one
or yet to find that can understand my simple needs
there is one but i rather have special feelings for her
because we can still maintained our friendship
i thank you for that and always motivating me
to the other one
u are still in your own world
us till giving guys the way to bring you down again
i guess u might suck at love but u score and hit jackpot on life education
thanks uh eh
i am not just a boy that u can be arrogant okay
i have a face and i took care of it
i spend some time alone just now doing my salary stuffs
minus things i need to minus
and things to buy and i seriously need to shop
planning for a movie marathon with hafa on Saturday and escape on Sunday
depends if my body is functioning well
everything is well
and hope work colleagues are much more fairer towards me
but i am cool with it
driving test coming up soon next week
i seriously need to study
i think thats all folks
gotta hit the sheets now ((:

i just wished my smile was a everlasting one
it melts some people
and i thank god for whatever he had set out for me and my life
i wish and prayed for the best and forever
this is what i have been keeping
and last advice
never divide your love
<3 ((:

this is the story

when shall all this problems stop?
when can see my family's happiness?
when is that?
why things i wanna achieved so hard to come by?
they are my blood
separating is what they want now
but how about my another 2 brothers?
i just felt like ending myself
well i almost did just now
i love my mum so much
she can be a bitch at one time
oops sorry
but which mother doesnt?
i defended her no matter hw bad the situation is
sometimes i am angry with the way mum treated me
but i still love her so much
she does everything for me
although mostly i do
she never fails to ask me
have i eaten and how's my day?
is just a but but its the thought that matters
i dont know why so suddenly i love my mum so much
only god knows how i felt
i started prayng a week ago and i maintained it
i am not boastful here but i guess its time i change for the better
i am not that good boy yet
i still smoke and sometimes vulgarities is my second language
but thanks to colleagues
i dont know
i decided to take a private diploma in communications @ APMI Kaplan
but a good soul told me its not recognized in SPF
so i got to check with the manpower tommorow morning
its time i break the chain of my family
be the first to earned big bucks without getting spoiled and wild
i keep praying for the best of my mum and dad
but it seems futile
looks like im joining the boats of friends whose family is divorce
and i dont know if i can cope
my dad is a n easy going where he agrees to almost everything
where else my mum is abit difficult to convince and we need 1000words to let hergive blessing
maybe because mothers know best
i love both of them so much although i dont really showed
let me tell you the dramas of my live
i have two lovely brothers
one named Danial 16years
and one named Adil 15years old
both were really i love so much
who doesnt?
from young i carried them,we had laughter
even did evil deeds together
but as we grow up the bond started to loosen up
my danial went inside boys home and still inside there for deeds he did and to reimburse himself,he went in and i lost a hope in himnot because he cant change
but because i lost someone i could talk to
share jokes and even when comes spring cleaning
when both of us just felt like cleeaning the house
and when he comes home every weekend now
we rarely meet because of my shift work
and i am always busy when he's not
but we did managed to smile and a pat on the ack
followed by some stupid arguments and i love him so much
he's my blood
as for my adil,he is the cutest and the laziest but still adorable
he was a very good boy since young and smart too
all of us thought he be the best and near to perfect
but one fine day the world around him changed him
he wasnt what we imagined
he smoked and stuffs and did out of things that he supposed not to do
he gets probation and soon he entering a place where he can be taught to appriecate things and change and that place has the religious activities
and all i can say i hope for all the best in him and danial
i just hope all this hardships are temporary and i want to see a brighter future where they can feed my parents and their future family
they are always in my prayers and i knew they are borned for a reason
some people out there dont go through what i went but i appriecate to the Great
because it taught me about simple things and hardships of life
i am thankful i can control myself
i have done bad deeds more than they did but i always make a pact not to get my family involved
u all can despise my family and stuffs but not in front of me
because i skin you alive for sure
alhamdulilah
when i get nearer to God,i have many problems because i can see Gos's main intentions
and to add to that
lucky i dont have a girlfriend although i crave for that
i am just not ready
with just 500plus a month,i cant even feed myself
but i made a point to give some to my mum to get
her blessings and 'berkat'
there is alot people dont know about me
the way i live my life
but there is people out there who have harder hardships but they can go on and change it to a better life
i want to meet the people to share and motivate me to be a better person
i swear i want the best for my future and i really want to bring at least 5k a month
but a good soul reminded me this which i planned to ake a motivation sentence for me
"there is no easy life to a easier route"
i got to agree with her
thats what i went through
but people always think i am a happy person which at times i fake it
because i simply dont want people to think i am a person who always wanted sympathy
that's not how i run my business
education is very important
singapore is for the people who are rich
and i guess i got to agree
we are a globalized country with lots of business and building opportunities
Singapore is stating that it wants to be just like US and all those countries that is making well in the industry
and i want to be such person to be there where money is really not an issue
and also i want to be there to prove that i don't forget my religion
for those people who don't pray,its time to slowly start
it doesn't mean i am a holy boy now
NO,i have lots to learn and i hope i stayed this way
one of the reasons or the good things i get when i started praying to Allah
is every time i forget a prayer,i felt a sense of guiltiness
and i tried to do it as soon as possible and i do laze around and delay the time
i really want to set my life straight and anytime fate can just come to me and said
my time is up and i am afraid i wont have time to be prepared
and talking about this makes me a cry boy
i love my dad's mum so much
both sides i mean but at times i felt she is being unfair is her love
but i just hope one day god would opened up her eyes and let her see better
which actually god has opened up a bit but she doenst realize though
she is a great cook and great adviser and shows the love
but at times i felt she should be fair to all parties
nevertheless my cousins have been the best
the Hafiz's Fam Nadiah's Fam Andee's Fam Fateen's Fam
all their parents are very concern although at times some of the girls can be a witch
the one reading this should know and smiling i guess
my bad ((;
& back to where i started
i just pray and hope for happiness of my family and i shall start treating them as it is
dad,forgive me for saying words that are not meant to be said
but i guess words just came out when i was angry
after a smoke i felt much relaxed and i just keep praying for the best of my future
amin
and on top of that
to the soul who chatted with me just now
who takes time telling me things to wake myself up
and also about education
i thank you and you can be one in a million
till then
am so sleepy now
i am working later in the morning and i need some sleep
thanks for taking the time to read and so on
i love you guys
and please show me signs of inspirational words ((:
to those i have hurt
please for give me
and i love you my family

that's it girl
i am seriously out of your life
u made use of me for your own good
u are good terms with him now
u dont need me
thanks for the times u gave me
i shall remember it for life
and it has to go on as per normal
sorry girl
i just had to let you go
like i said
u dont need me anymore
thought u could guide me in my studies and stuff
but i guess i was wrong
i have myself to compete
that;'s it
i dont wish to argue
u take care
whatever it is
i am just a call away
i maybe not good looking or what
but i have a heart filled with sincerity and pureness of love
take care

here i am once again
still not asleep and blogging
should have gone to work instead of taking leave
i had to clear my leave though

boring eh
but at the bright side
i can go prayers tomorrow
well yeah
i texted shahmee saying i had good food and
that fat adam called me ask me come back work
because not enough people and i really thought he was serious
when suddenly he said
kau rrreeelllaaakkk sua
:)
what the hell
haha,
then talk2 before he got report to do
haha
pape eh gemuk ,..

i need a break in the tropical springs
and i need a girlfriend soon
hahahahahaha =)

to all muslims
selamat hari raya aidil adha

6 December was a retreat for us Traffic Police
It was Our Traffic Police Family Day 08
and its my first time there
it was held at Road Safety Park
9-3pm and tickets were going for $5
it was compulsory and that's why sold out =)
so i met Irwan and Fadzulie @ Eunos MRT at 845am
and we saw the makcik "beyonce" =)
the rest macam susah nak bangun
we go ahead and reached there 15mins later
so when we reached they went to register for the soccer
and i didnt joined them thinking that all soccer is full
then to cut short,some didnt come on time and stuff
so we just waited and eat and food was great
saw my friends there
even kak ju came slightly late so
let the pics do the talking
uh-uh

Simply they have nothing better to do ((:

Masirwan'S Girlfriend who is my everyday bliss
she helps me alot about life and here i am
she is gorgeous isnt she ((:

With OC and Commander Traffic

dont think i am really smiling
i was half afraid although they said the snake is harmless
its heavy and the skin felt so different and i force myslef to smile
only God knows how i felt at that time but i still dare to take a pic of it okayNever mind what haters say, ignore 'em 'til they fade away

Amazing they ungreatful after all the game I gave away
Safe to say I paid the way for you cats to get paid today
You'd still be wasting days away, now had I never saved the day

this hambali gonna ORD in few days
hope the best for you man
i can see the smile is fake
thanks to the snake
so yeah =)
take care man
sorry for the troubles

this two cant never grow up u know +)
irwan and shikin
thet TL who doesnt take sides
and the one who understands
she with the soon-2-be ORD boy

Fatimah and her Chubby son
so cute
geramm je

this is me and saleha
i just find her sweet at times

k k kau main ni side aku main ni side,kau takmo risau pasal yg lambat dan bubble
kite boleh handle uh ((:

Kak Juremah with Suraya
she was a former staff at OTB
she is doing well ya know
that cute little boy is Alfian
kak ju's son

so i guess enough of pictures
went home around 3pm
thanks for giving me a lift
and slept like a log

have this litle though by myself
i just hope what i do is going right and smoothly
i trued to fullfill the 5 time a day prayers
and i hope i get barakah from the Great
and this is my blog
i dont boast around but i said waht i said