i get myself caught again in this line
i vowed not to really be in the middlemen yet
i still forgo myself just to be nice and i lose a friend
it wasnt really a friend as we just a colleaque but we do share the laughter
but everything changes around me so fast
till i dont know how to react
my back was turn away now
see
i didnt want to be the middlemen and now i was blame
what have i done to deserve all this?
but wait
how could i settle peacefully with him?
whenever i heard his name or he's near me
i felt so different
to be specify
angry or fear or guilty
i dont wish to play behind your back but its like i was left with no choice
i am really sorry
i realised a part of me
maybe i was wrong
maybe i was right
i dont even know where to start
it seems i lose everything
Trust.Friendship.Teamwork
yeah maybe its true
u all pretending behind my back
even so i was still nice to all
i never hated u guys or create dramas
i shared everything with u guys
please turn your head and look at that
i am so down now
its like i am entering depression mode soon
somebody please help me
i have submit myself to allah and i hope he gave me the correct path
where i can correct my mistakes
i have lost another special friend
what more?
what more to come haikel?
i am lost without guidance

to ciara
i am feeling awkward now
it seems i am to blame for all this shits
intentions were good but people dont see it that way
i am lost without a book of guidance to show me
i cant hide my feelings of uncomfortably
i felt so different with my clan
like they want me to go away
but each day i pray to the one above to show me the correct path i dont know
all i need is someone to talk to too
please?)):