Damaged

alright i am gonna blog about my daily rambles
today was supposed to work morning shift but i was too sick and went to take MC
and the doctor was really good,he gave me a stronger antibiotics for my pain
and its getting better =)
had my practical just now and almost all are done
TP coming up in April and i gotta get that license and i pay hard i will get
Traffic Police Dinner & Dance is coming up and i already plan out what i wanna wear on that day
and i hope i can get
Best Dress for that night
my clan are going and i am sure they all are gonna dress to impress
i swear i need a new camera

Happy 29th Birthday To Ismail Saheeb
the one that never fails to advised me and as always irritates me
best wishes and hope your path is full of roses and angels
=)



and my heart So Damaged
And you can blame the one before
So how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it
i dont really know what is going on and
u definitely didnt care how much i felt about you
or maybe u just felt in love with guys who are better off then me
cant denied that but so much i have done and this is what i get in return
u said i change but it was u that got the ball rolling
i am very super upset by you and u didnt even have the initiative to really pull me one side and talk to me but its okay been hurt lots of time
and i guess there is nothing i can do for it
thank for those things you have dine for me=)

alright
i have not been updating because i am damm tired
I am down with Urinary Tract Infection again
and its worst because honestly I didn't Had Sex For A Year
that makes me not a virgin alright
if i am scared i wouldn't blog about it
but before some narrow minded people start tagging
i started having these a year ago i guess when i had .... with someone
then it cured and it came back again
it happened that one thing i been downing redbull for the past 3days and i like to hold till i cant help it then i go urine and on friday,the pain came and i went to doctor yesterday and he told me i have UTI which means Urinary Tract Infection and pescribe me some anti-biotics for me and i ahve to see an urologist for check up but i am noot scared because i have not done anything dirty
but what the doctor say its true,i cant hold my urine and i have to drink lots of water though

and i started dinking plain water and ate vitamins
its time i watch out for my own bloody health

and yeah i call all those sweet girls "love"
its just how i spit it out
and i am sorry if it hurts anyone
and if there is a need to talk 2 me,by all means..=)

so yeah i cant wiat for my Traffic Police Dinner & Dance =)

U KNOW WHAT
I SO DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT PEOPLE WHO CANT STOP TALKING ABOUT ME
SERIOUSLY

first and foremost
happy valentine to all who celebrated it
and including those 'murtads' who celebrated too =)
hope all of you are doing good
=)

i am at work now
doing night shift and using mobile broadband
chatting with friends
and getting my work done
life so far so good
been busy preparing for the "show" which gonnna debut soon
and i am so worried as left with 30% and i gonna make sure it works
i just hope everyone is putting effort
and certainly pray there would be no penyakit hati

just now went out in the afternoon with isha and adi
and bought few stuffs
had lunch @ long john and no no v day for me
working night shift some more

i wish to highlight something to all lovely girls out there
if u have an abusive boyfriend
please do not hesitate to contact the police
dont let my species hurt you till u drop
because it wont bring you any good
take example for Rihanna's and Chris Brown Affair
she is badly beaten up and furthermore she is a artist with bright future
look what CB has done to her and now all his acts are being publicized
so girls wake up your damm mind and do something about your man
not just violence but also any other stuffs
and there were reports it was done way before this year
even last year friends revealed she had bruises
girls think yeah

and thats it fuggers
and yeah
K.A.R.M.A is really sweet
and i now see the world better

(;

Shag Shag Shag
that's what i am feeling right now
seriously cant help it
all those long hours of tearing my muscles and what's not
is killing me but is putting me on a good cause
i'll update soon and take care'to the the 'berisi'
ni i update eh already(;

I would always remember the cheerful bubbly personality you have
i would keep praying for you and you be fine out there
when i was told you look beautiful and calm when you are gone
i know u be happy up there
i swear i wanted to cry but it keeps holding me back
you planned to meet up but that never came
i am gonna miss you and same goes to our friends
but what all of us can do is pray for you and we know
Allah loves u more
you were my first secondary school love and i can never forget that
you touch our lives thats why you can see all of us visited you
we shall always love you
and i am proud your mum and dad is very strong
Al-Fatehah
we have to accept the fact she is gone to another place that is good for her
rather than this world that is full of sins


I had my practical from 12pm-8pm
and it so tiring after doing all the routines
but i am pretty sure we all gonna give you all out
other than that i am too shag already

to whom it may concern
you change my whole life
but it seems you care too little
or u are out there enjoying
but all i can do is just keep advicing you and all
i cant do much
i am not boyfriend to you
all i can do is pray things shall work out
pretty peace (;

You be in my memories Yasmeen

Yasmeen Binte Shamsudin
11/05/1989-06/02/2009

You would always be remembered and love by all of us
rest in peace and i would always love you
i regret we never get to meet up although we promised each other that
Semoga Roh dicucuri rahmat dan semoga yasmeen diletakkan di smaping orang2 yang beriman
u have my prayers yasmeen
i love you

sorry for the dusty cobwebs been busy with 2 praticals
car and stuffs
work has been okay life is much more great
alhamdulilah
took my IPPT just now and i aimed for Gold but too bad too sad i got only silver
i flopped in my 2.4Km and thanks to that all i got was disappointment and silver
but i thought of taking another time and see how it goes
and hopefully i can achieve gold this time
and im dead beat right now

having photoshoot later with them
and i hope its gonna be fun and all
i think thats all for now